This might just be my last for 2008

Hey everyone! As it is written in the title, this might be the last post from me this year. Before I go, I want to say thank you to everyone who's reading this cos you are the ones in my life who cares for me. Unless you're a creepy person and happen to chance on my blog. If you are a creepy person, then NO I do not thank you and please find other means of satisfying your bizarre need for my writing. Alright, seriously though, this year was a very different year for me. Going away makes me understand how different everything is outside of home. The experience I have had living on my own helps me grow not only into a more independent person, but also as someone others can rely on. But I am not gone for good. The knowledge that I will one day go home makes me smile at the end of every day.

Everyone, I am coming home. And I can't believe that I am saying this but...

See you tomorrow!

1.

Nervous

Tonight is my last night in Adelaide and as I recall the night before I left Singapore, I found that what I am feeling right now is much more than what I felt right before I came here. I am currently at the brink of an anxiety attack.

As I try to calm myself and think of a logical explanation to the appearance of butterflies in my stomach, I realised that I might be feeling so because I fear that there might be some expectations of me that I cannot fulfill. I am afraid that I might miss my flight. And then I worry about leaving things out.

I can't put my feelings into words right now. This does not happen frequently for me. So I don't know how to deal with it.

2.

One, Two, Three and the One and Only

Most of you should know that I am the eldest child in my family and since I have always been the eldest child and have never experienced what it is like to be otherwise, I often wonder how it is like to be in the middle or the baby of the family.

I guess it's a lot different. If you're the eldest, you're expected to "grow up" faster than everyone else and not to fight with your younger siblings over small things like who gets to be the red ranger or who gets to play with the new PS II and..... stuff like that. When you get older, you get smarter and bolder and you fight back. I remember once I was fighting with my younger brother over some toy and my father saw it.

"Let your brother have it," he said.

"Why should I?!" I boldly retorted.

"He's younger."

Same excuse again. My father always said that when he wanted me to give in.

"But he'll always be younger!" was my reply.

He fell silent.

I thought I had upset my father by being so rude but as I think about it now, maybe he wasn't upset. Maybe he was silent because he understands. My father is the eldest child of his family.

And I don't know about this but I guess the middle kid is easily forgotten and the youngest one is usually spoilt. And as for those who fall in neither of these categories aka the only child, they are not necessarily forced to grow up and definitely unforgettable but they are most certainly spoilt. Though I have to excuse my friend, Sarah from this. She is definitely not spoilt but as for the others, if you're an only child, there is a very real chance of you being spoilt. And if you're rich, you'll be spoilt too. And if you're the only child and you also happen to be rich, then you're likely to be......








..... a good target for kidnappers.

3.

One day less than one day less

I'd lost track of time.

5, 4.

There is nothing to do

I have a problem. You see, I will be leaving for Singapore via a 17 hour transit at Darwin and there is nothing for me to do there. Please tell me what you would normally do to pass time.

6.

Great news and greater news

Apart from going places, shopping, and enjoying life, I have been diligently looking out for houses that are available for rent next year (refer to the post on hunting). I'll be moving out of The Village at the end of this year as it is financially not advisable for me to stay on. And I have found a place! Correction, WE have found a place. One of my current housemate will be moving out with me. And if not for her, we wouldn't have gotten the place. So technically, I wasn't the one who did the shooting. All the credit goes to my friend.

So that's the great news. And the greater news is, I did well for my exams. A lot better than last semester. Now I wish that the lady who thought that I can't qualify for the transfer is still working at the science office. Not that I am bitter and want to " throw her (bitter) words back at her" but I just want to tell her not to judge people as she does. In any case, I am happy:)

7.

Grapes juice is good for you:)

As you would have known, I've been busy going places. But no matter how tight the schedule is, we still managed to make time for the simple pleasures in life. YUP! We went wine tasting.




We've been to tonnes of winery like Penfolds, Wolfblass, Peter LeHam, Jacobs Creek just to name a few. And we've tried at least 6 different type of wine in each winery. Shiraz, Merlot, Chardonnay, Cabernet Sauvignon, you name it, we've tried it.

I am guessing, but I think we've each drunk about maybe half a bottle of wine after everything. And that explains why we were all a little high at the end of the day.

It's down to 8 now.